Personal Log - Preparing to try to get pregnant

So I mostly want this blog to be a wealth of information but I think sometimes I'll post something personal.

Today I am nauseous. Again. Nauseous and tired and moody. It's not the good 'there's a baby growing inside me teehee' nauseous. It's the 'I'm on hormone pills because my body won't cooperate and this is the way the doctor thinks I could get a baby growing inside me' nauseous.

I haven't been officially declared 'infertile' yet but I don't get periods naturally so my doctor and I decided to tackle this now instead of waiting a year (a year of anxious 'trying') and I'm preparing myself for some fertility treatments to try to make sure I ovulate.  My doctor says that I don't have fertility signs so I probably either DON'T ovulate or I ovulate infrequently so, being 30, we are going to go ahead and try to convince my body that it would really like to ovulate, actually.

So I'm on progestin.  Progestin makes me crazy. It makes me moody, nauseous, tired, dizzy, headachy, and I get acne. I guess this is good practice for the 'real deal' when I am pregnant and experiencing all those lovely symptoms. For possibly 9 straight months. Can I handle it? Can my partner handle it? I guess we do what we have to do.

I've been back to yoga fairly consistently (yay) and taking my prenatal vitamins and eating pretty well. I've been incorporating more physical activity in my life. Now I just need to start updating this blog again and pretty soon I'll take clomid (an ovulation drug) and start actually 'trying' to get pregnant.

Baby Maze you were NOT an accident and you most definitely planned for.  I'm taking my pills. I'm doing my activities. I'm reading my articles. I'm suffering from nausea and mood swings and pimples and tiredness... just so you can exist. See, you were loved before you were even a zygote.